Ostracised
Just how I feel, exactly. Why does everything seem to be MY fault? BAH! And those hypocritical and cynical tones against me.... I'm like so bloody pissed and hurt. I'm freaking HUMAN afterall! It's not like I don't have feelings!
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And wanna know what triggered this emotions within me? well, it's freaking during PE today, when I collided with Eugene. (my collision with vivien is kinda a norm now, so I dunnid to mention >.<) Anyway, my class was playing frisbee. Then there was this one occasion i was running fast towards the frisbee before it lands on the ground. It so happen that eugene was running towards it too from my blind spot and we just collided, hard. we both landed on the ground instantly, and the impact was strong enough to roll me over.
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Apparently, the impact hit Eugene's back, and some ppl claimed they heard a cracking sound, so eugene was juz lying there, momentarily in pain (well he was like totally alright after like less than a min or so)? Well, somehow I managed to emerge mostly unscathed. Then fingers started pointing and the tension rose zzz... everybody (well seemingly everybody) freaking accused me of causing the collision. Some even deduced that I kicked or w/e Eugene. I mean come on la! If I kicked or punch him(on purpose, inferring from their tone), do I have to be so dramatic to dive like Ronaldo?
Thats a FKING insult that FKING pushed all the blame to me, juz coz I was alright. Just because I collided with two people on the same PE lesson and both from my own team, doesn't mean I cause it or did it intentionally! Why would I cause my own team to suffer!?
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Why can't I be the VICTIM???!!!
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Blaming me for everything, even suggesting and rallying people(I don't wanna name who here) to KICK/ELIMINATE/OUST me from the game is just TOO MUCH! It's like, WHAT THE HELL!!!! Do you know how hurting it is?? To be ostracised to this extent?!???!!?! I don't even know why I didnt just walk off then. I was so despirited and disappointed after that stupid incident....
I swear, if it ever happens to me again, I'm so fking gonna just turn away and walk off, I dun even care if the teacher is gna shout my name or w/e...
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Now to the more happy stuff
I finally met stacey after more than a year! Woo! Such a rare time when she makes it back to Singapore. I couldn't help it but make some time to meet her even tho I'm should be doing homework hahaha
Anyway, we met on 18july, saturday. We went Kallang leisure centre to ice skate and watch harry potter =D ice skating was fun! I didn't skate for so long and was rather wobbly hahahaha! at least I'm rather average already, right stace? hahaha. Stace could ice skate much better than me, malu sia hahaha. Oh yea and we saw edmund chen(mediacorp artiste) and his daughter there too!
Harry Potter was a .... 4 stars out of 5 movie I guess? maybe coz we both like harry potter series alot hahaha =p I realised the show wasn't really suitable for people who never read the book, coz it'll just be too confusing for them lol.
By the time the movie ended, it was alr like almost 11pm, so we went str8 home =p
I had a fun time! thanks stace!
