Sunday, July 5, 2009
4:09 PM
It's right smack in the middle of prelim 1.... and so far it hasn't look good. what's with all the freaking difficult papers anyway?I'm drowning.... drowning in my own uncertainties. Why can't I make up my mind? I can't live on this way... nothing will happen, there will be no progress at all....Fear? A phobia? why? why do I always feel this fear within me, tormenting me constantly. This fear is caging me, forming an impenetrable barrier around me... it is pushing away everybody, unwillingly, but evidently. What fear?It's the fear of getting hurt again....
Worse of all, why is the past coming to haunt me? I can't help glancing back once in awhile. It seems.... so instinctive. What's with the human brain that doesn't forget things, especially when you desperately want to?Your face in the past still haunts me...
Maybe the best remedy for all this....
Is to start anew,
With someone new,
All over again....
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY JOHNIA!!